>>Arini ak tlah bwt satu keputusan... satu kptsn yg ak rasekn baik tok ak dn die... arini gak die tlh crite kn sgle2nye kat ak..walupn sbnrnye byk lagi jwpn yg samar...samar.... haiz.. but eventhough die dh citekn sumenye.. nothing will chnge... ak tknk trik balik kate2 ak walau ap cre skali pun... tpi ak rase itulah yg plg terbaik.. ak terpkse lepaskn die..krne die smdri telah lepaskn ak dulu...tk mungkin ak akn ubh pendirian ak.. ak tknk lag mgharap dgn harapn palsu.... ak tknk lg mengis sbb die... ak pnt... pnt sgt... walu bgaimana pun syg tuh masih ade tpi benci masih menyelubungi diri... luka ku masih lagi begitu.. belum lagi meniggalkn parut atau hilang bgtu sje...haiz tahlah.. ak tk thu same ade ape yg ak bwat ini btul atau tidak..tpi.. ak tknk lag tersekse...bgtu juge ak tidak mahu die tersekse lg..biarlah kami begini.. sunyi begtu shj.. anggaplah seperti ak dan die tk pernh bertemu... ak mahu die mulekn hidup baru... die brjnji kepada ku tidak akn kacu ak lg... tpi adakah ini yg ak mahu?? tahlah.. biarlah mase yg menentukn....jika benar jodoh ku dn die masih ade... ak berdoa agr ak dan die dipertemukan semula...disaat wktu ati ku telah sembuh sepenuhnye.. tetapi jika tidak... ak berharp agr tidak akn pernh bertemu dgn die kmbali....haiz.. ak masih tk kuat... ak tkleh lihat mke die... perasaan sakit itu masih ade...i stil can't forgive him.. and i stil can't forget the fact he lied to me twice.... tk pyh lah thu apkh pmbhongan itu kerana adekale nye kite perlu rhsieknnye... siyesly it is also too pain to say gdbye.... i stil luv him.. but never ever ak akn terime die kmbali... not as a fwen or anything... ak tkleh tipu dri ak yg masih skit kerane die.... tapi ak jugak tkleh nafikn yg ak tkleh lupekn die... and hakikat yg sbnr ak masih keliru dgn sume critenye.... mane satu yg btull.. die masih ckp die tidak bleh lupekn ak... tk pernh... tpi btul kah kate2 nye itu... dulu sesenang itu die katekn die tidak menyayangi ku lagi... and skrg dgn sesenang itu die kate kn die masih sygkn ak... haiz tahlah... tpi... itulah hakikatnye.. kebenaran yang hanye diri die shaja yg thu.... but what is for sure i will always remmber him...i hope he think the same as i am.....
>> You know what happened to me today??? he called me again....haiz...ssh ke ak nk bwat die phm??? ak tknk ade pape ngn die dh... kalu die btul2 nk ak maafkn die... knape die tkleh juz leave me alone...juz for once i need him to understnd... slma ni... it'z always bout him... i'll always need to understnd him... always need to be patient..knpe die tkleh bwat?? tlg lah... nape die tk abs2 nk menyekse ak...siyesly i don't want to have anything wit him... kalu die nk ak lupekan sumenye... die pn msti tlg ak.... mesti stop cntcting me... luke ni..luke ni terlalu dlm.... ak tkleh lupekn cmtu je... cube die jdi ak?? ak..ak...haiz... ak tknk crik gduh dh.. ak dh pnt.... i juz want him to stop ok... stop bothering me.... kalu bleh merayu ak merayu... i juz want to strt my new life... i don't care ape yg org kate... i don't care kalu diowang swuh ak lupekn sumenye and berbaik balik dgn die...plzzzz... don't push me.... ak tkleh bwaat mase nih.... btul2 tklh... kalu die nk berbaik ngn ak pun.. i'm soooooo sorry... ak tkleh nk bwat sume tuh... i still need a whole lot of time.... can't anyone juz understnd my feelings??? Ya Allah tlg lah tabahkn ati hamba Mu ini.... tyme... yes that what i need now... bkn ke ni sume yg die nk dulu??? ak tk phm ap sbnrnye die nk expect ak bwat... honestly i still a weak person.. there.. i said it already... he can be happy what, even i'm not araond.. he still can smile rite even i am not his friend or apart of his life... sooo what more he want from me... he still can have his life even ak tk wujud.... soooo tlglah... ak btul2 nk kehidupan yg bru.... i'm trying very hard here....haiz... and he still can ask me to follow him to ieja's house?? i can't believe die tkleh nk phm perasaan ak yg hancur brkecai sbb die...and die still bleh ckp cmni" dhlah tuh..lupekn sumenye...tkyh nk bnci..bnci..dh..." haiz... i don't noe what to say.... die igt kngn yg bgtu pahit bg ak bleh dilupekn bgitu sje?? die tk igt ke ak pernh ckp... yg ak tkkn maafkn die... maybe satu ari nanti ati ak akn lmbut and i expct wktu tuh die tkde kene mengene lg dlm hidup ak...and kemaafan tuh diucp oleh kate2 atiku yg setelah sekian lame pulih dngn perlahannye...haiz.. juz diz one...plz understnd me... ak tk pernh mntk kat die ape2 sblm nih... and for this... the first and last tyme.. ak mintk dr die... tlg lah phm perasaan ak yg btul2 terluke... and juz let me be... maybe mase yg menentukan pertemuan ak dn die.... and wktu tu.... luke yg tgl hnye tgl parut yg mmberikan kesan...
>>hohoohoh tonite...kitowang akn bwat family gathering...and kitowang will have a karaoke and bbq.... and ofcourse it wil be quite intresting...tk sbrnye nk tngu mlm nih..... Tpi tdi kitowng dh try dh the new karaoke set yg ktowg beli tdi..... tk sbr sgt... smpi tk menyempat-nyempat:P ahaks.... and ak pun ak nyanyi gak td tau..ha....jgn men2....:P juz mlm nih mmg excited sgt and tk sbr nk tnggu:P
